the journal

Breaking the Silence

March 23, 2016

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If you’ve been following my blog at all, you’ve probably noticed that it’s been a long time since I’ve posted… well, anything.  It’s embarrassing even.  Months have gone by, and I’ve been shooting like a madwoman – weddings, engagements, babies, families.  But ever since last spring (ouch, yes… it’s been THAT long), I’ve been holding off on sharing.  Why?  I’m not quite sure.  But the longer it got since I posted anything, the more intimidating it seemed to break the silence.  After several times of sitting at the computer staring at a blinking cursor and choosing instead to close my laptop for the day, the easier it got to just let it go.  And I’ve learned something valuable in the past almost-year.

Life is busy, y’all.  My boys are now 18 months and 3.5 years old.  Milo is climbing on everything, starting to say new words almost daily and following Reece around the back yard in their never ending game of follow the leader.  Reece is in preschool now, and I’ve turned into an official soccer mom now that he’s started soccer practice.  I worked with a designer to rebrand my business, built a new website, and curated my portfolio into a collection that I’m so proud of I could cry.  All while shooting 30 weddings plus all of the engagements, family and newborn sessions in between.  Life has been flying by, and in the moments I’ve had to sit down and enjoy my family time I’ve done just that.  Blog posts can wait.  Growing toddlers won’t.  And even if I were to try to get anything done during the day anyway, I’d have one of the boys crawling up into my lap to bang on the keyboard in about 5 seconds :)

Just when I thought things were going to start slowing down for a while before wedding season started, we decided to move to a completely new town.  The day after my first wedding of the year in February this year, we packed up our townhouse in San Jose and moved to Tracy.  It was a BIG change, but I couldn’t be more happy about it.  I’ve always been a country girl at heart, and the biggest change between here and the busy Bay Area is the pace.  People smile at each other.  I pass fields of cows and sheep on the way to drop Reece off at preschool.  I can sit in the backyard on our patio sipping coffee while I watch the boys play in the sandbox and put grass on top of each other’s heads.  Here, I feel like I can breathe.

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And now, after all these crazy changes and having had some time to unpack both my thoughts and some boxes, I’m ready.  I’m ready for this new wedding season, and I’m ready to start unveiling some of what I’ve been shooting over the past year.   Let me tell you, I’m excited about it.  Check back tomorrow morning for the first wedding of the 2016 year – a stunning early spring wedding at the Santa Clara University Mission!